Surround Yourself with people who care.

My mother used to always say surround yourself with good people, people who are positive in their outlook,people who care for others, people who will inspire you to do good and be good themselves... etc etc . As I grow older my belief in these statements increases day by day. I have been in an environment where people have been downright mean,bitchy and negative and I thought to myself welll people are like this only... so what!! You survive..right!!
Well I did, for some time at least but something just dint feel right. Inside I felt cold, unhappy and for some reason angry all the time. Then.. what my mom said came back to me and I left that place to take up another job. Here there was a drastic change people were sweet,treated you with respect and actually cared about what you said. Now my mother says I make too much noise when I return home(coz I'm singing all the time and it just doesn't help that I sound like a crow), she says there is a certain twinkle in m eyes(why don't the guys notice it..sighh! I wonder is it true, can people really have so much of impact in our lives. Can people who are positive and funny and maddeningly sweet really make you feel "so happy" and people who are "rude and negative" make you feel "so sad". In my case funnily it does.. that is why I always try to be around people who might not be the most brilliant people on the planet but are intelligent enough to not hurt anyone with their words. People who don't have to be nice to you but make that little effort to do so. Do such people exist..hee they do.. you just have to find them.The search but first should begin within you.. you have to caring and sweet and nice and all that jazz then probably you will start attracting all these people.As the law of nature states "what goes around comes around" and the law of my mom says you do good and you will start attracting good...hee it's true!!

Wake up Sid..my verdict

Okie so I watched wake up Sid really and truly enjoyed and no they are not paying me for writing this(I wish they were..Sighhhh) . A movie which according to me was not only about Sid waking but also Aisha waking up hmm confused dont be let me explain.

See we go through life thinking that this is what we want but many a times it's not what we want we just think that it is. For example we all think that we want a partner who is intelligent, has a good career, sophisticated, mature... in the real sense a real man... that’s what we all are conditioned to believe or automatically do believe.

Well thats what Aisha believed she wanted, a man not a boy but then you never know when life or the cupid will strike and she realized she wanted a boy as well. Someone with whom she could be independent yet depend on in tough times..Someone who was not perfect but in his imperfection there was some amount of perfection..lol

A person she thought should learn from her how to lead a life but in turn she learnt how life is truly meant to be lived..hmm interesting is it not,he learns how not to let go and she learns that sometimes it is better to let go.

Atleast for me the movie meant not only wake up Sid but also wake up Aisha..hee hee Well made, subtle ,intelligent,realiastic and overall a very beautifully handled subject of a mature love story ..need I go on..

No I think not, will not go on further and bore you but my verdict is out(like anybody cares) I LIKE IT and hope you did to . If you haven’t caught the flick catch it baby what you are waiting for ..your own Sid or Aisha to come along or what???

In the past two weeks disaster has struck me twice and in both the cases I felt guilty,miserable. Though only much later did I realize how ironical and completely hilarious both the situations were.So without further ado lets begin with the first one, picture the scene I am all dressed walking down my lane in the hot Friday afternoon at 3pm.

So everything is ok till here the only thing being that I need to reach for a interview and I am getting fabulously late. So instead of things going right they start going wrong starting with my heels just coming apart right there on the road in front of two giggly school boy, one driver and one guard.

Now feeling extremely embarrassed I start trudging my way back walking lopsided wearing heels on one foot and the remains of it on the other all the while pretending to talk on my phone.
Now in our very own Delhi people just cant seem to mind their own business or refrain from giving you advise when you least want it .So the guard says "madamji check nahi kiya nikalne se phele" and the school boy goes with big smile on his face" Ghar se kisiko bola lijye" and the best of all the driver a complete stranger" hum aapko drop karde madam " all the while smirking.

I ward off all their good intentions (Yeah right) while continuing my walk till a bit further on the other heel also comes apart(what luck right!!). Anyways here I meet a servant walking the dog who offers to take care off the heel till later when I can come and collect it from him.

Seriously what a day I did not know whether to cry or bash up the whole lot of them and these things I guess can only happen to me. Well anyways the story ends all right I managed to reach on time and the interview was not so bad either.

My only problem is that I get to see my broken heel lying under the tree where I had thrown it in a huff that day, no one seems to be getting rid of it and I wouldn't be caught dead going near it.
hmm any solution to his problem do let me know... btw I have started praying just before stepping outside my house hope it helps....

I love PJs...

Okay so I'm love with Pj's ...I admit it..I'm utterly and crazily in love with them!
See now that's where the problem lies because most people aren't ..so you have this comical situation (according to me) and then there are loud sounds coming from where...welll from dear old Megha!

Yes.. she is laughing and laughing and snorkling etc etc while all around her people find it difficult to even pretend to smile. Now can you beat that how embarrassing that is! I have actually lost all hopes for me these days since here I'm all sophisticated and all that just like "Audrey Hepburn".
"Poof" some stupid situation or one innocent comment has me gaffing my lungs and all my intestines out..sheeesh

Hmm I wonder if genetically there is something wrong with me but noooo both parents are completely sane(Shit I can't blame them) mentalyyy okay we are definitely not going there.

Hence moral of the story
1) Do not crack a good joke in front of me ..you will have me rolling on the ground
2) Do not crack a bad one u will be ruining my reputation
3)Do not make double meaning comments in front of me I might never recover ..

PS: Do not take this mail very seriously you live life only once so go ahead lets all be "happy and Marry" ooops merry ..lol ..get it ...get it! Gosh Somebody stop me!!!!

Entire human race...

Free the world make it a better place ..for you and for me and the entire human race...beautiful song by our very own Micheal Jackson..May your soul rest in peace!

Well if you think this blog is about Micheal you are partly right but only that because it's about this song actually..You know this song always touches me more than any other coz it's not talking about freedom for a particular nation or religion. Instead it talks about freedom for the entire human race and that is whats truly admirable about this song.

Freedom from caste issues ..freedom from religious bias ...freedom from our very own prejudices now that's what I call being truly liberated. Truly being free means I respect not only my freedom but others as well ..means not only giving respect to my God only but equally giving respect to others beliefs as well.

It means being able celebrate Christmas, Diwali , Holli,pongal and whole lot others and where else can you do that except in INDIA. I know..I know there are still problems -honour killings going rampant in places like rajasthan where couples from same village or opposite caste cannot marry ..people getting discriminated because of their caste ..upper caste ,,lower caste..she is a Punjabi ..he is a Muslim ..he is marwari!!

I'm lucky I'm born into a family where sardars are married to christans., ..my mother who is a punjabi brahmin ,her sister is married to a muslim and my fathers real brother married to a European.
So when i speak or in this case write it is from experience of having seen my European Aunt trying to shake a leg on Punjabi songs...by seeing this handsome Christan boy playing a dholak at a punjabi wedding while winking at his wife who happens to be a sardarni. It's not only my family but there are so many others like this but I hope it becomes the story of the whole world and specially in rural areas where even talking to a person from another caste is not only a crime but it can cost you your life as well...

I hope no actually I have faith that a time will come when we all belonging from different religions ,caste and nationalities will be able to live together in harmony along with our own individual beliefs , values and sentiments ..it is then that I will truly feel freee...HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY!!!!

Long time no see

Gawd I never been sooo busy as to not take out time to write but this time I have been.
Too busy with work ....too involved in Rakhi ka Sawaymvar(Yes I never miss it), too tired and sleepy sometimes(yup got plenty of excuses!!)

You know what but between all this I missed something and yes you know whats coming...I missed writing about irrelevant yet important stuff.

It irritated the hell out of me that I could not find time to blog..to write what I feel, in a nut shell could not find time for meeeee(scary I tell u).Soo now I have decided come rain,hail or snow a "woman has to do what she has to do" ...(Yes I always wanted to use that line)

Anyways will try oops no no will make sure I write because it makes me happy though I hope it doesn't make you sad ...what the hell Megha takes to blogging like how a fish takes to water.
God I'm in such a mood I'm starting to freak myself out... catch you later Alligator !!!

Down but not out

Sometimes it is so difficult to prove yourself to others even though you know you have it in you. I mean you know you are good but either the circumstances are not right or you get the chance and you blow it. Which can be a major bumer coz you don't know whether to bang your head against the wall, scream loudly or bash up someone(Chill I do not promote any of these things ..though I wish sometimes..).

It's a little tough not losing faith and still trudging on when people are ready to write you off...but thennnn tannn tadaaa...sound ...music and action..what just happened!

Well I am one of those majorly lucky people who has a God like mother and brother who rather being a pesk is one of my biggest supporter...feels nice when someone still believes in you when even you don't want to.

So here goes out a salute to all those people who have friends, family member,other loved ones who stand by them...You are very lucky to have them in you life.

Do not take them for granted or ever hurt them coz they will be around when no one else is!!
BE HAPPY AS WELL COZ YOU ARE TRULY BLESSED JUST LIKE I AM...!!

Tired soul

This week for some reason is turning out to be a total drag...wake up in the morning..go to office ...come back at night...fall asleep trying to read!
Seriously now im mad..really..totally and completely going insane and I am not getting any time to READ which was like breathing to me.
It was my only solace not that im heavily into intellectual reading and stuff(though i do wish i was) in fact far from it. I enjoy reading and everything which would typically range from motivational books to newspaper to mills and boons(Sigh!!) to literature written on cosmetics bottles(like behind shampoo bottles ,toothpaste..etc) do not make a face these things are very educational..
OK so now instead of writing im going to read ..dunno what but be sure that it won't go to waste, since I believe some of the worlds simplest things have so much depth you just need a worthy person to be able to comprehend it... which would be me!! So off I go...Good Nite folks!

PS: Kindly do not judge my intelligence on the basis of my reading habits..!!

So many things to do soo little time..

I somehow am able to relate with this saying so well that it's completely crazy and I am sure even you do too.
I mean for starters when was the last time you thought that from now on it's only a healthy diet that you are going to follow,you even plan it out to the minutest detail,do you stick it to yes..for exactly three days maybe less.

It can be a little disturbing sometimes is it not all these things we want to do infact we need to do but we all get swept away by this big whole tide called life.

Well I have so many things on my wish list I don't know where to begin..want to read more ..want to study ahead..oh ohh want to learn salsa,judo,cooking..see what I mean!

You know I don't want that this list should only remain a list,I want to be able to do all these things probably more so will try and promise myself that I positively must take out time for all this by learning some time management skills.The only thing being that hopefully I should be able to take time out for this as well..hee hee

Me...Mary Poppins

It's been a slow week to say in the least..I guess it always happens whenever you want things to happen, right then automatically everything starts going at a superb slow pace.. soo irritating.

Well it's a little troublesome but then it's better things move slow and steady and your way rather than fast and furious and ending absolutely no where.

I'm sure by now you are wondering what I'm talking about wish I could help you with this one since even Im not very sure what Im getting at.

Guess it's one of those days and I am in one of those moods where I wish I was hmmm lets say "Marry Poppins" and things would happen at the snap of my fingers.
All my wishes and dreams would come true...sounds wonderful..."ya right it does for about 10 secs it does" but then think about it that would be sooo boring.

Whats the fun if you get everything in a platter no suspense,no drama,you end up getting complacent(plus you will get majorly fat) and the most important thing no hope.
That small tiny grain of MIRACLE..hope..which makes you believe that there will be light when there is darkness all around..see even thinking and writing about it is making me smile.

So keep a tight hold on this tiny grain and keep smiling just like I am.....

Indian Public..force to reckon with!

All's well that end's well was a phrase which I couldn't have used had not UPA turned as victorious in the elections in fact I am going to go a step further and say thank God as well as thank the Indian voters-they have managed to create history of sorts.

I was scared might be an understatement since I was actually undergoing a massive heart attack when the results were about to be announced thank god I survived as well as the present government did.

I feel no remorse in admitting that I completely underestimated my people as did the opposition which eventually cost them a very high price to pay, when I interacted and spoke to people around me most of them were literate, financially stable and voting for congress( baring a few) it was the people in rural areas,illiterate people,people who had been hit by recession,people who might have been given lectures on morals and safeguarding our culture by people who think they are the sole custodians of their religions who I was more worried about.

Turns out I had actually nothing to worry about the Indian public has finally come of age,they are not people you can take for fools and mess around with because if you try you land up in hot soup just like the opposition do.

I am a happy woman today who will get to catch up on her beauty sleep today knowing that there is nothing to worry about as long as the India public remains awake..!

What can I say except for..Jai ho India! Jai Ho Indian public Ki!

Delhi praising time

Poll results are due tomorrow and I don't know about you but I am a bit scared, hope everything turns out well. Any which ways it's going to be a close call and I for one am keeping my fingers crossed.
You must be wondering why the hell is she so worked up about well..ofcourse, this is my country and which government is going to be elected concerns not only me but each one of us so when Mumbai had a low turnout of voters I was'nt sad , I was angry..mad..the works specially since after the 26/11 I thought people would be up and about since it shook up not only the city but India,the whole world and me(I was there when it happened).

So know I need to majorly give Delhites a thumbs up and a pat on the back(for me as well) for showing up in large numbers and telling the people we care even if you do not!
Well done Delhi..am a proud woman!

Delhi Vs Mumbai(countinued..)

Ok I think I did a lot of Delhi male bashing in my last post which I completely stand by since it's 100% accurate.Contrary to the perception that people might get after going through the post is that most probably I am feminst which is untrue I guarantee.
I am just a normal woman who would like her city to be safe for her to live in, to be given enough freedom so she can live her dreams and not fear that they will be crushed.
A woman who feels that she has much equal rights as a man to work hard and earn a decent living without this thought entering her head every morning as she steps out, hope the day goes of smoothly and I return home safely to my loved ones.
I believe that not all people are that bad even some of the Delhi guys are quite nice but I just wish that the good ones would outnumber the bad ones.
Wo kehte hai na vishwas pe Duniya kayam hi...!!

Delhi Vs Mumbai through my eyes

Now I am born and brought up in this city and so I love Delhi no doubt about that but I just cant help comparing it with Mumbai sometimes. So we will or should I say I will tell you about the various facets of both the cities according to me and for the record these opinions strictly belong to me and me only and I do not have a political agenda,trust me on this one.

1)Men:-
Delhi Men(exceptions are always there) seriously do not know how to respect woman,it's not only in the way they talk to you but they manage to insult or make you feel cheap just by the way they look at you.
Mumbai Men definitely get a thumbs up from me it's not that eve teasing does not happen there but men in general RESPECT women there and don't make you feel like crap everytime they check you out.

I know lot of Delhi men might or might not agree with me but believe me being a woman you instantly notice this difference infact I can back my statement with a fact.
Just Yesterday my brother told me that there is something in the Mumbai culture which teaches you to treat women as equals,beings who are intelligent and individualitic and not some sex object only.

While in Delhi the culture is quite the opposite women here are always meant to be seen but not heard,always doing what they are asked to do and basically being a shadow off their husbands.
Don't know why but this is what I have noticed maybe it's because Mumbai is more cosmopolitan in it's outlook or may be because Delhi's society is too conservative whatever it is I hope things change soon!

been a long time..

God I feel like I'm writing after ages and probably I am , my last post was when I was in Mumbai .
I don't whether I made the correct decision or not, I was very happy there but Delhi is where my loved ones live and as the saying goes..home is where the heart is.
Both these places are so similar and so completely opposite in some cases I tell you it freaks you out. Maybe I should blog about the different aspects of Delhi and Mumbai through my eyes..hmm yup I think I will definitely go for it ...do stick around!

P.S I love you!

Finally got around to watch this movie last night,liked it but it also got me thinking a bit..
The movie teaches you that life can be so unpredictable sometimes that just when you have everything planned till the last detail, something happens which makes all your well thought out strategies bite the dust in a matter of seconds.
All the more reason that life should lived to the fullest and as if each day is your last day,which does not mean getting so drunk that you end up puking on the person next to you or killing someone by driving rashly or getting sillicon implants to impess someone or shoplifting for the kick of it,being rude to people just because they are below you or different from you and certainly does not mean that you take sanyas and go up to the himalayas(you can always do that if you want to..)
It means telling your parents and siblings "I love you" ..making that special call to someone you were angry with or have'nt spoken to in ages, giving away some food or money to a needy person and watch his face lighten up or perhaps getting your hands on that special pair of shoes ,book or perhaps special someone.
Whatever it is I urge you and myself as well to go ahead and do that...life is tool short to live with any kind of regrets or fears...you want to do something don't put it of for later do it now and do it well even if you failed atlest you tried and that always counts for something does'nt it..?

Getting older rocks..!!

The first question that my old school mate asked me as soon as she met was Megha aren't you getting married ...you are like 26 girl..wrong side to be on better get hitched asap.
Only when people look at me with wonder does the full impact of being a 26 yr full grown up woman really hit coz quite frankly I don't feel a day older than 21. They say that even I look youger(thank god for that ) so it comes across as quite a surpise to people when they come to know about my age.So you think it ends here well no it does'nt because then the people start cross questioning me ..
They:Boyfriend?
Me:Huh No!
They:Why Not?
Me :Never Got around to finding the right one
They:You are lying aren't you?
Me:Hell No why would I lie I am way above the legal age of 18 and If I had one why would I hide it.
They:Are you gay or something?
Me(fuming by now):No absolutely not
They:Well then are you blind or crazy or something and the conversation goes on...
I tell you being single is definitely not easy either you are gay or you need psychiatric help.. I am neither so I am going continue living my life,pretend to ignore the boyfriend question and in the meanwhile be on the lookout for one who himself is neither gay or insane...know anyone who fits the bill do send his contact details to me...

I like my own company...thank you very much!!

Sometimes I just like to be left alone,alone in my thoughts,secluded in my own company.
Now is that bad ..yes according to a lot of people because humans detest being alone they like being surrounded with their own kind 24*7.
Now thats an irony in my case since I get scared if I am around people for too long...don't get me wrong I love being around people and enjoy great conversation.
Till a certain point I am fine then i need to withdraw into my shell,recharge my battery,introspect,learn from mistakes and then come out feeling wiser..refreshed and raring to go.
It's just that I can't be around people morning,noon and night, it scares the shit out of me especially being around people who constantly complain,crib and our mostly negative all the time(even those who talk too much).
Those kind specially make me want to run for my life because such people I feel drain your energy and after meeting them you also start thinking negative.
That does not mean that I don't crib and complain...i do..but I dont get carried away with it.I speak out and thats it I dont take it to my heart or keep a grudge..once its out of my system it's out.
Back to returning where I started from I think being a loner sometimes has it's benefits..it helps me stay focussed and in control..saves me from going insane and actually gives me time to assimilate the good that I want in my life and filter out the bad.
So go ahead don't be scared of being in your own company once in a while,it might actually turn out well ..who knows you might even turn out to be the best of friends!!!!!

My first day as an intern

I had a nice day today...met some really nice people at my workplace-oridnary people, people you probably would'nt give a second glance to if you met them on the road but I guess that's what attracted me first to this place.Simple and straight forward people who do not have any attitude problem the only thing they do have is kindness and love which they display quite openly.The way all of them welcomed me felt like I had been part of their organization since ages.
Another thing that my professor-Vinod Sir used to teach, came out true..he said no organization could prosper and have a pleasant work culture if it did not have its values and ethics intact.Proud to report this place has its roots firmly in place.I am lucky, I think I got what I was looking for .
Will try and do justice to this nice homely environment that I am going to become a part of and hopefully things will work out just fine.
Well tommorrow another day in the life of Megha so I should be sleeping but not before thanking god and remembering what my mother always says "whatever happens,happens for the best only" hence leave things to him when in doubt..I did and you know what touchwood it has worked out better than I imagined..

Everything is cool

Good news guys, finally got through..I got a job...yeahh!!! Well actually I have to intern at a PR agency and if they find me good enough I would get to become a part of their company.
Cool na.. you know whenever something new has to happens it brings with it a sense of anticipation, bit of excitement,lots of apprehension and a whole lot of hope.Yes hope the one thing that drives the whole world and certainly drives me every sec to move on,to believe,to let go when necessary.So are you one of those people whose first instinct is to never lose hope no matter what hits them because I certainly am ,to such an instinct that I find each and every situation hopeful.People think I am a little daft because of this but you know what..it has always turned to my advantage since each and every trouble makes me hope which in turn drives me to look at every angle of a problem en what happens,yup you guessed it 'hope' happens it make me find a solution to any kind of difficulty that passes my way.So hmmm moral of the story never give up on that little seed of hope that you have,let it germinate,grow and it will guide you towards the right path.Mano meri baat!!

'Paisa Vasool' chilled out store...

Last time I had forgotten to tell you about an interesting thing or should I say an interesting store that I visited. Paisa Vasool at city centre mall(Mumbai Central) is one of the most funky and chilled out store I have ever been to.
Cool music, cowboy hats,hillarious slogans written on the walls, T-shirts with messages like 'Single and Disease free',stylish clothes and my personal favourite a trial room which they call as a make over room...nice no.. its kinda krazy because you have stupid messages(which by the way I am quite fond of)like 'Yahan par salman ne apni shirt tangi thi'...the one next to the mirror.. 'Shit mein aisa dikhta hun'.
See I like...I love this place and you know thats not the end.. the most innovative thing that i saw..well,a wooden cart to be precise(like in the old movies) with all fashion jewellary hanging on it...lovelyyyy.
I think the place is worth a dekho,i enjoyed the experience...why dont you go ahead and check it out and revert back to me with your comments.
More later..!!

Food for thought...

Nothing really exciting happened except that I went shopping(I am slowly realizing how addictive this can get..),went shopping for formal clothes,did buy them but also ended up buying biscuits and talcum powder(dont ask me why I dont know).
This retail therapy theory might actually work but you need deep pockets and a strong will power...will power yes,deep pockets I dont think so.
So do I promote it yaaa I guess so, its not that bad I actually enjoyed myself but ohhh my aching feet...u know what my recommendations are:invent small toy cars which can be navigated in the mall and Second, a small machine which calculates how much you are spending and as soon as you exceed your limits it starts ringing loudly, sort of an alarm.
Now even if you cant stop your self still,dont worry, the incessant ringing is sure to bring the security in to stop you or even better to throw you out for spreading such noise pollution cool na. Maybe somebody needs to tell some scientists about my suggestions...anybody there ..Helloooo!

To take a risk or not to take a risk....

Interview time ....the word which sends shivers down the spine of the bravest,specially in times of recession. I am sort of facing exactly this situation at this point in time, companies are coming for the brightest,most intelligent or should we say the cream of the lot.
The thought do i figure among them or more imporatantly do I want to figure among their list ..
People think I am being a little senile when i dont sit for interviews ,they ask how can i afford to take such a risk but how do i explain that i am not being either choosy or overconfident...i just need to be 200% sure.
I need to have full conviction in whatever i do so if it means taking a risk so be it.I do not know whether this is a wise decision or not but it is a heartfelt one, I do assure.
I do not know that in the end if others are going to turn out to be right or that will I have the last say in this matter but what i do know,the heart sometimes does not listen to reason.
If only we knew whether that was a good thing or a bad thing...if only,well I will probably come to know in my case soon enough whether i get through or not .
Whatever happens you can be rest assured that i would be writing about it.....lets hope for the best!!!

Shopping...not as bad as i thought.

My course will be coming to an end in another 1-2 months and interviews are going to begin..so you know what that means,well the obvious, tension...preparation...and above all my least favourite word "shopping" !!!! You have to look good dont you...ofcourse you have to.
You know whoever said that women love shopping, that their greatest stress buster is retail therapy either needs to get his head examined or probably meeds to meet me...
Don't get me wrong i don't exactly hate shopping its just that it never really fascinated me so much or probably i dont have the patience for it.
So here i was going shopping with my friends for formals praying that i just walk in there and walk out within 5 mins flat..somebody should have told me it's just not possible!!
You know it was'nt that bad,it was actually quite fun and considering the fact that we shopped for 4 hrs straight with me having a bad headache it actually sort of made the pain a little less.It's another matter that the pain intensified the moment i got home !!!
Hmm so my lesson for the day "things that appear bad might not be so horrible"..i think i will try it regularly now the only thing is i will be needing a gap of atleast a months for my feet and my bank account to recover.
Till then i think i should give window shopping a try..whats say?

im nice that doesnt mean in dumb

Ok i am in a very bad mood i dont understand why people don't understand that if i am nice to people, if i don't like to pass witty remarks at other people's expense or if i go up to people and be the first one to wish them doesn't mean that i am weak, doesn't mean i don't have a spine and it certainly does not mean that i am dumb or that i like to suck up to people.
What it does mean though that i try to make a conscious effort to be nice even if it really tries my patience to the extreme.My Grandmother is supposed to be blamed for this one, for drilling it into my head when i was younger that be nice...it won't kill you!Wish i can go back that tell her " yes nani, believe me one of these days it will".Well for the simple reason that people usually are so caught up in their own world, that to take time out from there and actually be considerate will really be asking for too much.Then there is also the oh so mighty ego to contend with, so as you can see with all this going on being nice is tough,being mean is probably easier.
So what should i do, go on a major ego trip of my own and just drop all the words like "thank you","sorry","hello","can i help you", from my vocabulary. Well the answer to this one is little confusing but here again what my nani told me comes to me "being nice is imporatant in this world...only peole with character will be able to hold on to this trait,i hope you are one of them".
You know the saying old people are wise, i agree my nani is truly one of them.

I really wonder sometimes why is that some things that seem so insignificant in life at one point seem so much more important as we grow older..dont know maybe it happens a little too often with me.A close friend in school who fought with me on such a trival issue as why i did not keep in touch regulary decided not to speak to me..maybe i should have broken the ice just that i was on a ego trip and in no mood to relent or maybe the time when i was so rude to a elder just because he wouldnt let things happen my way or probabaly when my little cousin wanted to play with me and i was too busy reading Mills & Boons(majorly embarassed to admit this one) and a whole lot more other things which are so close to heart that it cannot be written only remembered.
They are really stupid things when you come to think of it but whenever i go back in time it sorts of pinch me.."what if i had done that instead of", golden words i must say but pretty much useless now though i am going to try to rectify things , i am going to start by calling my friend up after ages..little scared..dont know how she is going to react but hope that she understands and that i am somehow able to lessen the years wasted and the pain along with that.Wish me luck and remember to think twice,thrice or even five,six times for that matter before doing something or saying something,believe me you wouldnt want to regret it later..trust me on this one!